Alarm goes of in the morning. Someone is calling me. I pick up my phone to answer the call. Start speaking but the phone is still ringing. I hit the button again and again but it isn’t working. I wake up, with the alarm still going off next to me.

This is the staircase from my nightmares. There’s a door to the right as well.

Once tried to stop a small aircraft from rolling against a car. Upon impact the vibration in the wing knocked me over.

Next time I’ll let it crash and enjoy the show.

Before the largest things on the horizon were trees and perhaps the odd church or water tower. These windmills tower over anything there is on the countryside.

The point I’m trying to make here is that our definition of tall has significantly shifted over the last 20/30 years. E.g. windmill 5km away is visually still twice as high as the church tower which is 500 meters away from you.

I’m scared. To have 600+ tabs open like this…

“One is free from depression when they derive their self worth from the truth of their own feelings, and not from the posession of certain things or qualities.” - Alice Miller, The Drama of The Gifted Child